I am in so much pain right now. I've been sitting at my desk studying for my maths exam most of the day, so being hunched over the whole time already killed my neck and back. And gave me an excruciating headache. At 7pm I went to calisthenics. I was already tired and sore and stiff, and took my maths books in the hope I'd get some of my cheat sheet written while I wasn't on stage. So I was okay for the first couple of hours, understandably tired though. Exercises, dance and march went surprisingly well. Then we got to clubs. Again that wasn't too bad and seeing as I'm not on for very much of clubs, I thankfully did get almost half my cheat sheet done. Then we did rods. We went over one exercise that of course happened to be a splits/floor exercise. Now, after already having done exercises and dance earlier, both of which have a fair bit of floor work that we were working on, this rods bit killed me. I could not kneel anymore, I had/have bruises all over my feet, ankles and knees. And I couldn't get this one bit! I just got confused, and then my coach yelled at me because I kept getting it wrong and kept getting more frustrated. And I had to try SO FREAKING HARD not to cry. I just wanted to go home. I managed to not cry until I got home and had a shower. Then mum came in, noticed I was upset and struggling to move at all, so she gave me a hug and I just lost it. Broke down in sobs, I don't even really know why except for that I was exhausted, had a headache, massively sore and stressed.
Now, I'm lying in bed writing this and it took me almost five minutes of writhing around before I found a position that doesn't put my back into spasms. Not sure how sitting in an exam for two hours tomorrow is gonna go!
I just needed to rant and get my frustration out. I feel like I have more to say, but I don't know what to say or how to say it. So goodnight I guess.